Dear Sister,

Take a deep breath. Thank God for your life. For your journey thus far. Thank God for every decision, every mistake, every thought that brought you where you are today. I know the last thing a woman seeking the fruit of the womb wants to hear is to just relax, it will happen. So I won't say that. I know the sting of those words because I heard them too, while I was walking out of doctor's offices, recovering from surgeries, and crying on my bathroom floor. Instead, I will tell you what I needed to hear when I was in a similar position.

Look to God. He sees all and He knows all. His name is El Roi, the God who sees me, and He sees you right now. He will guide you in every single step and in every single emotion. He may or may not answer your prayers the same way you envisioned it but He will indeed answer your prayers. Have faith that His plans are better than yours. You have seen His works numerous times and He will never leave you nor forsake you.

Let God have it. Tell Him exactly how you feel. He wants to hear from you. Yell, scream, remind Him of His promises to you. He wants you to give Him all your worries and cares. He has you completely. It's okay to be angry at Him and still love Him. It's okay to skip the baby shower. It's okay to whisper "How long, Lord?" for the thousandth time and wonder if He's listening. He is. Let Him have it.

God loves you.
Ijeoma

Scars from my last surgery, August 2025: Robotic assisted hysterectomy, bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy, excision of parametrial endometriosis, nephrectomy, robot-assisted, laparoscopy.